If only, I have all the courage to tell you how much I feel now.

If only, you know how it does feel to bleed in smile, cause deep inside I’m weeping.

If only, you know how does it feel to miss you though we’re always seeing each other but it hurts knowing that I can never express my feeling and let you know how it does feel.

If only, I get all the time to let you know just so you understand it clearly.

It’s hard knowing that I’m in love with a person that is already out of reach and it hurts even more to see this person loving someone else. 

Do you even realize, the way I look at you is very much different when I look into the others?

Though each time I’m talking much about other friends of mine but it is just a statement that actually telling you.. “I can never be able to talk more about you ‘cause you’re not even mine..” 

Can’t you see it, I really like you?

And you should know that it is better to have you at least as a great friend of mine, rather than not having you at all.

After I know all the air you breathe is her,

And she never let me straight out of your view..

You’ve found comfort with my distance,

The distance that is actually not even there but the distance is between you and I, never speak more than that.

Have you ever realize it, just in one blink,

Knowing that I could see you more than this..

How I wish you know..

But I guess you don’t know ‘cause you keep asking about some other people.

I miss you just now.

If only, you were mine.

And that’s what I’m wishing from day to day.. 

*picture is me @ Seaworld Indonesia, Ancol. Taken by mom and edited by me