Just please, try on this straitjacket feeling so maybe I won’t be alone.. Since yesterday was hell but today I’m fine without you.. And you can take back my life you’re stealing.. 

This is getting harder because every time I’m trying to move on, you’re always there and I can’t let go of the moment of it. I like you, okay? But it’s the time for me to move on, keep it harder so that I can start to forget this feeling.. This feeling sucks I can’t lie. I know I adore you but why it makes me fall in love too? I really can’t stand the pain :’( 

I’m sorry if I talk too much to you, sorry if I tell you so many important stories, sorry for being childish in front of you and sorry for being jealous without unimportant reason. I’m sorry for causing so much messed up, I’m sorry for everything that I have told you and you seems do not have the interest to catch up with my ideas. But it’s just me wanting to, to hold you but I just can’t. It’s just me missing you, and your smiles, your jokes, and our silly conversation but I, somehow could realize it if we can’t bring this any deeper because we are afraid we might lose the condition..

This pain seems like, I need a big fake smile to keep reminding myself that everything that you breathe isn’t me but it’s her. And she never let me straight out of your view..